Catabell【琉璃室所】: 01/01/2011

18.1.11

Broken

Try as you may, you can never piece together something broken exactly the way as it was.

Once broken, it'll never be the same.

Then again, if you try hard enough, once in a while it might turn into something beautiful - different, but beautiful.

So beautiful that you can't help but wonder: Is this even real?

Even if something amazing can come of those broken pieces, most often than not, you wouldn't dare to embrace it, coz it's too good to be true, it looks so delicate and fragile that you dare not sneeze, lest it be blown into pieces, again.

No matter how much you appreciate it, you're constantly tiptoeing around it, expecting it to dissolve any minute like an illusion.

Once broken, it'll never be the same again.

Yet sometimes, we got to have a little faith.

I can't say that it never fails, it might as well break into a million pieces again, but it's a risk we must take to reap the reward.

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13.1.11

All Powerful

Just watched the trailer of【127 Hours】on youtube, at the end, it says: There is no force on earth more powerful than the will to live.

I know it's meant to be inspiring, but, really? There is no force on earth more powerful than the will to live?

I don't think so.

Yes, the will to live IS powerful, it could drive one to do incredible things, it could do miracles, sure.

But there are also fools like me, who would not think twice about throwing our lives away for the ones we love.

The moment love knocks on your door, your life only comes in second. Nothing in all the universe could stop that feeling, and there's no price you won't pay, including your dear life.

So, sorry, I have to disagree on this one.

The movie is based on extraordinary real-life story of a mountaineer who amputated his own arm to free himself after being trapped from a boulder that pinned him for five days. So it must be inspiring, but I don't feel like watching it in theatre. Maybe it's just me, but the idea of watching somebody struggle and strive just to stay alive when a series of mishap befall him isn't that entertaining when I'm trapped in the cinema. So maybe I'll get the DVD when it's released.

Life is beautiful. I might get lost sometimes, might feel miserable or depressed, but I never take it for granted, coz I know damn well that not all of us could live to see yet another sunrise. I guess I'm lucky, coz I enjoy and appreciate many simple things in life, like that feeling of warmth as the sun washes over me, like the clear blue sky, the soothing sea, or simply sipping ice tea reading a novel on Saturday morning.

If only you could open your mind and enjoy what you see, life could be beautiful.

5.1.11

Beloved Berlin Wall

一向抗拒外語片(英、日、國語除外)，總覺得看電影聽不明對白有所欠缺，看翻譯字幕不夠傳神盡興。

不過近年本港購入的外語電影質素不俗，地雷度竟比荷里活電影還要低。貓男說，外語電影畢竟屬小眾口味，千挑萬選出來的，差不到哪裡。

近月先因預告片吸引而進場看【The Concert】(original title: Le Concert)，這天又在荷里活喜劇與德國片【Beloved Berlin Wall】(original title: Liebe Mauer)之間選了後者。取外語片捨荷里活電影並非貓的一貫作風，可是在看過預告片後，貓＆貓男一致認為【Beloved Berlin Wall】比較吸引。

離開場只有４０分鐘，只能找個地方匆匆解決晚餐......豐富是很豐富了，味道也還可以，就嫌太油膩，炸雞排咬下去，滿嘴都是油 (．．。)

演男主角 Sascha 的 Maxim Mehmet 外表憨直討好～加分！不過本片以柏林圍牆作噱頭，卻沒有深入探討東、西德政治，敏感話題要不蜻蜓點水，要不以黑色幽默帶過，是擔心令電影過分沈重嗎？不過與其深度不足兩邊不討好，倒不如乾脆胡鬧到底，黑色幽默一番算了。

說是愛情片呢，又沒有很細膩感人的情愛描寫，只有尾聲圍觀倒下，男女主角守得雲開一幕場面比較動人。不過電影沒有悶場，笑笑鬧鬧１０３分鐘就過去了。

4.1.11

《他的戀愛故事》

我們都憧憬盪氣迴腸的戀愛故事。

所以人們鍾愛楊過與小龍女；所以人們歌頌羅密歐與茱麗葉。

虛構故事尚且扣人心弦，發生在現實世界就更為人所樂道，是以溫莎公爵與辛普森太太那個不愛江山愛美人的浪漫故事至今仍為人傳誦。

司徒華先生是一位可敬的前輩、無懼無私的自由鬥士。他的殞落，無疑是港人的損失。

人們渴望知得更多，欲一窺自由鬥士在政治背後的另一面。這些，我都了解。

鐵漢柔情、終身不娶，多麼煽情的題材！於是一而再，再而三地炒作他的一段舊情，將他終身不娶的解釋引用一遍又一遍，務求叫讀者耳熟能詳為止。專題內容不便重複嗎？不怕不怕，乾脆針對他埋於心底的另一半來個「大起底」，由姓名、年齡、任教科目、所患何病、昔日瑣事一一翻出，繪聲繪影地描述一番，不賺人熱淚誓不罷休。

君に届け

華叔走了，報章日以繼夜的報道，本來無可厚非，畢竟一位民主鬥士辭世誰也感到惋惜。

可是報道歸報道，可否別揭人隱私，翻華叔的舊情？

雖然報道皆屬正面，可是筆者有否想過，華叔多年來保持低調，僅以"好同事／拍檔"來形容女友，也許正正不想打擾先人及其家人？

誠然，相較華叔的履歷和功績，也許終身不娶的愛情故事對普遍讀者而言來得更煽情，只是，戀愛中的人之所以守候付出，並非為了博得傳媒歌頌，那只是發自內心最真切的選擇。傳媒朋友可否別再三引述華叔的獨身宣言，讓死者得以安息？

一時有感撰了心情隨筆：《他的戀愛故事》，上傳後才醒覺原來自己已有整整一年沒寫過散文了。

曾幾何時，靈感如泉湧，散文是最自然而然的抒發方式；
曾幾何時，小說創作猶如呼吸般理所當然，一天不寫渾身不自在。

近兩年卻連寫日記也感乏力，為甚麼呢？那個寫作的夢想貓並沒有忘記，也不想放棄啊！

畢業之初選擇當記者，正正是為了工作彈性，能磨練文筆之餘亦可騰出更多時間來寫作吧？打從甚麼時候竟把工作放首位，本末倒置，甚至轉職公關，弄得自己連睡覺的時間也不夠呢？

新一年，正好給自己一個目標，重新上路，重拾創作的樂趣。

貓男告知【君に届け】動漫第二季開播了，這才想起去年十一月遊東京時碰巧【君に届け】真人電影版上映，可惜當時只貓一個，沒進場，滿以為稍後香港會上呢，看來機會渺茫......

真人版電影由三蒲春馬演風早翔太，雖說貓很喜歡三蒲春馬過往所演的角色，不過風早くん由他來演，感覺上仍有點距離；倒是演黒沼爽子的多部未華子，本來對她的印象很一般，但預告片中的她卻能活現出"貞子"陰沈的神髓，值得期待！

"君に届け"真是個好名字 -- 內心的想法很想傳達給對方 -- 寫作亦然。

伝えたいの気持ち、君に届けるかな？

3.1.11

窩心暖蛋

不曉得是血壓低於常人（８ｘ／５ｘ），還是因為老人家口中的血氣不足？每到冬天，貓爪總是異常的冰冷，尤其早陣子流落巴黎，暴風雪下，即使已穿着羽絨、戴着皮手套，儘管身體暖和，十指還是冰得像快要自手掌脫落一樣，都冷得麻痺掉！

大概知道貓冬日長期處於苦練"寒冰掌"的狀態，貓男乘"聾貓"推出限量版電子暖手蛋之際即訂一隻來送貓ヾ(o゜∀゜o)ノ。+゜

雖然暖手蛋體積略細，只得單一發熱面，因此握着它時，只能在暖手指和暖掌心之間作取捨，且須左右手交替着取暖，但心意遠勝一切，收到這份意外驚喜的窩心比甚麼都來得溫暖 (*⌒∇⌒*)

2.1.11

面目全非

是日有約。跟貓男一起往攝影公司看排版設計。

自問有要求但不挑剔，上次挑選相片"入冊"時，因拍攝效果比預期中要好得多，作為一輯"試相"已稱得上滿意非常，幾乎都沒要求過後期ＰＳ加工(除了數張手臂疤痕非常明顯礙眼)。這次亦相當有效率，排版設計完全沒改動，只補上幾首預先選好的詩詞金句。看仔細了，有些地方需要ＰＳ，但在設計師的鬼斧神工下，沒一會便完成，可以安安心心晚飯去 o(^-^o)(o^-^)o

許久沒到沙田了，面目全非，曾光顧的餐廳已不復見，只好挑一家像樣的。途經這家泰國菜賣相吸引，就這家吧！

本來點個馬拉盞通菜，可是瞥見餐牌上有這麼一道泰式茄子豆腐，賣相討好，即時改變主意 ♪ 真的不錯吃呢（≧∀≦）

既想吃泰式炒金邊粉，又想嚐冬蔭功炒飯，結果決定各點一客分着吃ヾ(o゜∀゜o)ノ

沒想到原來兩款如此相似，都給你兩頭大蝦；不過泰式炒金邊粉香口入味，反之炒飯全吃不出冬蔭功味來，大抵泰式炒金邊粉味道較濃，將冬蔭功的酸甜清香蓋過了？

1.1.11

New Year Resolutions

Didn't make any New Year Resolutions last year......well, what's the point if it's not gonna be accomplished anyway?

Maybe I should try harder. I need to commit to something, a course of action......otherwise, I'm so lost that I'll end up heading nowhere, just a waste of time.

Life is short, couldn't afford wasting......so here it goes:

1) Not afriad of or apologetic for being who I really am;
2) Quit procrastinating；<-- tough
3) Better time management；<-- difficult, but I'll try my best
4) Write at regular intervals；
5) Finish my novel before my contract with the Publisher ends this year;
6) Finish refining and renewing all fictions；<-- it takes time, sure, but not impossible
7) Finish retouching all photos; <-- over 100GB of JPEGs...hmmm...
8) Exercise more;
9) Stop eating like I have bulimia, switch to a healthier diet for the sake of my poor immune system; <-- definitely don't want another lymph node surgery due to unknown infection (T ^ T)
10) Travel more (and enjoy it) o(Φ ಎ Φ)o

Some say that we should aim lower so that we could actually accomplish our NY resolutions, but that's just not me, so, what the hell ╮(╯▽╰)╭

Came down with a cold, sore throat & runny nose on the first day of 2011, what a nice way to start a new year (￣∇￣+)